Tuesday, 8 November 2011

მამა გაბრიელი განღმრთობისა და 10 ქალწულის იგავის შეასახებ



mTels kacobriobas, mis yvela mcxovrebs warsulSi, awmyosa da momavalSi exeba sityvebi dabadebidan ,,gavaCinoT kaci Cvens xatad Cvens msgavsad~.
ki, yvela adamians exeba es, magram nuTu yovelma adamianma dabadebulma xatebad RmrTisa, misi cxovrebiT SeiZina da moipova WeSmariti msgavseba RmerTisa? nuTu yoveli suli iyo RmrTaebrivad nayofieri da am nayofiT msgavsi misi mTesveli-sa? arsebuli cxovrebiseuli sinam-dvile gviCvenebs, rom ara, radgan WeSmariti msgavseba RmerTisa _ es madlismieri didi saidumlo moipo-ves mxolod WeSmaritma RmerTis Svilebma rwmeniT da saqmiT,  moipoves udidesi moRvaweobiT, romlisTvisac ase sastikad da TavgamodebiT iRvwodnen.
adamianis cxovrebis arsi sulis cxonebaSi da am cxonebisaTvis daus-rulebel muSakobaSia. dausrulebeli, radgan kaci, romelic anebebs Tavs qristianul moRvaweobas, is mecniere-biT, Tu umecrebiT sasikvdilod imetebs Tavs. aq gaCereba daRupvaa, xolo SeCereba daRupvis tolfasia, radgan, anebeb ra Tavs sulis macxov-nebelis saqmeebis keTebas, akldebi sicocxles, Cerdebi sicocxlisaTvis da cxovrob sikvdilisaTvis.
ai, es hqonda dadebuli cxovrebis arsad yovels, romelTac hpoves gan-sveneba saukuno netarebaSi. iRvwodnen dRe-mudam, ar Cerdebodnen da ar jerdebodnen miRweul sazoms, miilt-vodnen usrulesisken. am qveyanze, xorcSi cxovreba maTTvis niSnavda jer ar morCenas sarbielisas, radgan maTTis aRsrulebas sarbielisas niS-navda gvirgvins qristesagan zeciur saxlSi. amas gvaswavlis pavle moci-quli, rodesac ambobs: ,,Zmano, me arRara Semeracxies Tavi Cemi warwev-nulad; xolo erTi ese, ukanasa mas daviviwyeb, da winasa mas mivhwudebi, da krZalulebiT vhsdev gvirgvinsa mas zecisa Cinebisa RmrTisasa qriste iesos mier~ (filip. 3; 15-16).
yoveli maTgani sulis cxonebisaT-vis da RmerTTan erTobisaTvis iRvwoda Taviseburi cxovrebis wesiT. zogi ucnauriT, zogi sacnauriT, zogni erTiT, zogni mravaliT, xolo erTe-ulni saTnoebaTa krebulis ZaliT. yovel maTgans hqonda garkveuli xarisxobrivi erToba RmerTTan, yove-li maTgani cxovrebiT da gulis siR-rmeSi miiswrafvoda yovlis gvir-gvinis, RmrTaebrivi siyvarulis SesaZenad, nabij-nabij, didi tanjviT, didi wuxiliT, magram ufro didi moTminebiTa da didi surviliT adi-oda yoveli kaci am mwvervalisaken.
yoveli, sarwmunoebiT mrTeli, gonieri moRvawe am mwvervalis kalTebidan aris Semokrebili, radgan Seicnes, rom maTi cxovrebis arsis misawvdomi dedaazri es mTaa ,,ismine israil! ufali RmerTi Seni ufali erT-ars; da Seiyvaro ufali RmerTi Seni yoveliTa guliTa SeniTa, da yoveliTa suliTa SeniTa, da yoveli-Ta gonebiTa SeniTa, da yoveliTa ZaliTa SeniTa; ese ars pirveli mcneba! da meore msgavsi amisi: Seiyvaro moyvasi Seni, viTarca Tavi Tvisi. ufros amaTsa sxua mcneba ara ars~. (mark. 12; 29-31) yovelma maTganma gamudmebuli mcdelobiT, garkveuli sazomiT aRasrules es sityvebi da moipoves uflisagan Tavisi didi Tu mcire wili, srulyofili _ RmrTa-ebrivi siyvarulidan. yovel maTgans mieca Tavisi sazomiT, RmerTisa da moyvasis siyvarulisTvis misi moRva-weobis, Sromisa da garjis Sesaba-misad. mxolod erTeulT, romelTac bolomdis gaswires Tavi RmrTisaTvis da saxarebisaTvis ergoT pativi qristesagan, rom asulebs am mTis mwvervalze dasdgomodaT gvirgvini da srulis gancdiT egemaT gemo RmrTaebrivi siyvarulisa.
da mainc, netav vin asula ara yov-eli kacisaTvis Sesaxeb da misawvdom am simaRlemde, rom mTeli suli dahburvoda RvTaebrivi siyvaruliT. netav vin iyvnen romelTac ise gani-cades RmerTTan is sruli erToba da siaxlove, da im siRrmiT Caswvdnen Cauwvdomel bunebas RmrTisas, rom ar scodnodaT sityvebi ioane mociqu-lisa da eTqvaT ,,RmerTi siyvaruli ars~. eTqvaT didi siRrmiT da am siRrmeSi gancdili grZnobiT, grZno-biT, romelic umtkicesi da ucxadesia yovel grZnobaze, radgan aqvT maT ukve codna am umaRlesis _ srulyo-fili siyvarulisa!
dilidan, gaRviZebisTanave mama gabrieli gamaxsenda da gadavwyvite mis sanaxavad wavsuliyavi. Tumca, ki, sul axali nanaxi myavda, mainc misi naxvis surviliT avenTe. saerTod, yovelTvis, am didebuli mamis gaxsene-baze, misi naxvis surviliT vivsebodi da Tu raime aucilebeli saqme ar mqonda, romelic Cem qalaqSi (Tbilis-Si) darCenas iTxovda, yovelTvis mivdiodi masTan.
Semodgomis Cveulebrivi mziani dRe iyo. dilis cxra saaTze saxlidan gasuli albaT aTis naxevarze mcxe-TaSi viqnebodi, Tu swored maxsovs sveticxovlis taZarSi Seviare, taZarsa da upirveles yovlisa, macxovris kvarTis gansasvenebels Tayvani veci da Semdgom, samTavros dedaTa monastrisaken gavemarTe. ase dawvrilebiT imitom vwer, rom minda CemTvis am Zvirfas dRes Zalisamebr, araferi gamovaklo. rac SeiZleba, yovelive bolomde vTqva am dRis Sesaxeb, Cems mexsierebaSi darCenili, Tu gind, umciresi, da zogierTTaTvis SeiZleba umniSvneloc ki da araRire-buli, magram CemTvis _ Zalzed Zvir-fasi, radgan es yovelive im didebuli dRis mTlianobis ganuyofeli nawi-lia, romelic mgoni, ara Tu daamZimebs Txrobas, aramed met simsubuqes da sicocxles miscems.
da mainc, SeiZleba bevri ram damav-iwyda da bevric gamomrCes, magram es yovelive verafers daaklebs im mTavar saTqmels, romelic mfeTqavi gulia mosaTxrobisa.
samTavros monasterSi Sesulma, garedan vemTxvie wmida ninos patara ekvders, monastris did taZars da mama gabrielis senakisaken wavedi. kibeebi aviare, romelic rogorc mama gabrielis senakis, aseve dedaTa sacxovrebeli korpusisaken adis. senakis orive kari Ria iyo. Sida karebTan deda paraskeva jorkoze ijda,  gamiRima da is iyo locva unda meTqva Sesvlis ufleba rom ameRo, man damaswro da mama gabriels Cemi misvla auwya, Tan gare karebTan SeCerebuls miTxra: _ ,,Semodi raRas uyureb~? _ mec aRar davayovne da Sevedi. xelSi patara CanTa meWira, mcire mosakiTxiT, romelic TiTqmis yvela mimsvlels mihqonda didi sixaruliT da amiT gamoxatavdnen mzrunvelobas da im did siyvaruls, gulSi rom hqondaT mamaosadmi. xvdebodnen, rom is maT cxovrebaSi Seufasebeli saunje iyo.
mama gabrielic am mosakiTxebiT, mis mier an uSualod misi xelmZRvane-lobiT gakeTebuli saWmelebiT uxvad maspinZlobda yovel mimsvlels. iSviaTad Tu iqneba iseTi adamiani, romelic araTu orjer da metjer, aramed erTxel yofiliyo masTan misuli da mas mama gabrielis lukma ar egemos. Tumc marTalia daZalaba ar icoda, magram iseTnairad gTxovda da getyoda, rom kargi gamaZRaric ki, erT lukmas mainc SesWamdi da asiamovnebdi am didebuli mamis guls, romelsac saswaulad, patara  bav-SviviT uxaroda Tu ki vinme misi didi Tu mcire trapezidan miirTmevda da miT umetes, danayrdeboda.
ho, saTqmels davubrundebi, CanTa deda paraskevas miveci, xolo me mama gabrielTan mivedi, daviCoqe, dasalo-cad Tavi movuxare da vuTxari: ,,damloceT mamao~. manac, misi Cveuli siRrmidan momdinare seriozulobiT damloca da masTan axlos mdgom jorkoze mimiTiTa dajdoma. aq cota SevCerdebi da mama gabrielis locva-kurTxevaze oriod sityvas vityvi. arasdros, rac mama gabriels vicnobdi da misi locva-kurTxevebi maxsendeba, ver vigoneb iseT SemTxve-vas, rom rodesme aCqarebuliyos da guldaudebeli locva-kurTxeva mie-ces. Tu gind locva-kurTxevis asaRebad mosuli mravali adamiani yofiliyos. arc imas vambob, TiTqos is yovel adamians didxans ayenebda da locvis ganvrcobiT, an sxva ram qmedebiT qmnida STabeWdilebas. ara! es iyo bunebrivi, sadac misi Sinagani madli da Zala kurTxevis asaRebad misulisgan aSkarad SeigrZnoboda. SeigrZnoboda ara misiT, misi mcdelobiT, rom TiTqos surda kacTa winaSe madlmosilebis gamoCineba, aramed yovelive es xdeboda misTvis bunebrivi cxivrebiseuli ubralo-ebiT da ukeTu adanmianisTvis cxadi da sagrZnobi iyo, mxolod da mxolod im mizezis gamo, rom mas hqonda didi erToba RmerTTan, rac ukve misi didi mcdelobis miuxedavad, rom daefara adamianTa winaSe aRar, ufro zustad ki veRar ifareboda, radgan SeuZleb-elia srulebiT, nawilobriv ki SesaZ-lebeli, rom dahfaros adamianma es erToba, rac mama gabriels ufalTan hqonda!
ufro cxadi rom iyos zemoT naT-qvami RmerTis Sesaxeb, Cemeuli mosaz-rebiT vityvi. nuTu masze didad dafa-ruli, romelic sulia absoluturi da ara Tu kacTagan, aramed angeloz-Taganac ki ver ixileba. arsebobs vin-me an raime? magram misi uzenaesobis da gamo, rom is aris vinc WeSmaritad aris, Semoqmedi yovelivesi, nuTu  vinmes an raimes mTel samyaroSi aqvs misebri sicxade da myofobis WeSma-riteba? ara! aseve vityvi mis msaxur-zedac, did berze, romelsac hqonda sruli erToba RmerTTan, rasac Semdgomi saubari dagvanaxebs, rom man cxovrebaSive hpova dasasruli Rmer-TSi, xolo im qveynad maradiuli gansruleba dasasrulisa.
diax, es iyo bunebrivi. man icoda visTvis rogori locva-kurTxeva mieca, is ar TvalTmaqcobda da mecnierobda, aramed RmerTisagan micemuli winaswarmetyvelebis niWiT, romelic mas ara Tu momentaluri da perioduli, aramed maradiulad, myofadad hqonda, eubneboda yvelas Tavis saTqmels. zogs mxolod dalo-cavda, zogierTs gancxadebulad, Tu dafarulad, winaswar afrTxilebda mosalodnel gansacdelze, miuTiTeb-da, cxonebisaTvis damabrkolebelze, misi sulis aRSenebisaTvis aucileb-elze... amisaTvis mama gabriels ar sWirdeboda adamianis gacnoba, gasaub-reba, an Tundac mimsvlelisagan aRsarebis saxiT raimes Tqma. misi mWereteli goneba yvelafers xedavda da saTqmels, rogorc pirvelad nanaxs, aseve didi xnis nacnobs, Tu saWiro iqneboda erTnairi siRrmiT da amomwuravad eubneboda.
sul raRac aTiode wuTi iqneboda gasuli Cemi jorkoze dajdomidan, rom mama gabrielma, dedaos uTxra: _ ,,wadi daisvene da Tu raime damWirda, dagiZaxeb~. deda paraskevas ar dauy-ovnebia, ramdenime wuTi gaCerda da mama gabrielisagan Tavis senakSi wavida. dedaos gasvlis Semdeg senakSi martoni davrCiT. mama gabrielma mcire dumilis Semdeg gadmomxeda da miTxra: ,,ginda dRes moyvaso, saRmrTo Temebze visaubroT~? _ RimiliT Tan-xmoba vuTxari, Tan davibeni, radgan mama gabrielTan romeli saRmrTo mosaubre viyavi.
sulganabuli vijeqi da velode-bodi, Tu ras moimoqmedebda netari mama. taxtidan wamodga, mantia, rome-lic zevidan efara, mxrebze moisxa, Semdgom sakmeveli aabola, jorkoze Camojda da miseburi alersiani saxiT da sityviT SemekiTxa: _ ,,aba Zmao, Tu SeiZleba, miTxari, yvelaze metad romeli fsalmuni giyvars~?
am kiTxvam Zalze damabnia, ar vico-di, ra meTqva, radgan ase gamorCeulad moyvaruli romelime fsalmunisa ar viyavi, magram radgan pasuxi unda gameca yvelaze cnobili 50-e fsal-muni vuTxari, romlis Tqma sxva fsalmunebTan SedarebiT xSirad miwevda da garkveulwiladac sxvebze metadac momwonda.
_ o, miwyale gyvarebiaT. es marTlac didebuli fsalmunia fsalmunTa So-ris. maS, radgan giyvarT, misi Sinaar-sic gecodinebaT da Tu SeiZleba miTxariT Tqveni azriT ras unda niSnavdes ,,uCinoni da dafarulni sibrZnisa Senisani gamomicxaden me~.
Tavidanve mivxvdi, rom am kiTxvaze pasuxis gamcemi ar viyavi, magram mama gabrielis dasmuli kiTxvis gamo _ ,,radgan giyvarT misi Sinaarsic gecodenebaTo~, _ Semrcxva pirdapir `ar vicis~ Tqma, radgan amiT TiTqos tyuilis Tqma gamomividoda mamaos winaSe da movindome raRac pasuxi momeZebna. imas ki ver vxvdebodi, rom ubralod unda meRiarebina am sakiT-xis ar codna da Cemi is uZlureba, romelsac amgvar kiTxvaze pasuxis gacema ar SeeZlo. am mdgomareobaSi viyavi da roca karga xnis fiqris Semdeg mivxvdi, rom tyuilad vwval-obdi, Tan droc gadioda da uxerxuli iyo amdenxans pasuxis ar gacema, Zala movikribe da sircxvileuli xmiT vuTxari: ,,ara vici, mamao~.
man araferi SeimCnia, piriqiT, mis-Tvis Cveuli mosiyvarule RimiliT gamiRima, riTac Sinaganad amomasunTqa; radgan es iyo CemTvis niSani imisa, rom man yvelaferi keTilad aRiqva da mixvda, rom es saqme uZlurebisda gamo momivida da ara tyuilisagan. ise gavxdi, TiTqos _ ar vici-meTqi ki ara _ kargi, jerovani pasuxi gameces da is Sinagani nerviuloba, romelic mamaos mimarT TiTqos tyuilis TqmiT gamo mqonda, saerTod gamcilda.
_ kargiT, moyvaso, radgan Tqven ara, maSin me vityvi Tu ras niSnavs ,,uCinoni da dafarulni sibrZnisa Senisani gamomicxaden me~.
Tavdapirvelad daviwyoT uCinodan, romelsac mefe daviTi samarTlad da sibrZniT ixsenebs dafarulze win, da romelic Zalisamebr misisa gan-mcxadebelia RmrTis sibrZnis sakvir-velebisa.
uCino aris is uxilavi sulieri samyaro, romelic saxierma da yov-lad Zlierma RmerTma, misi miuwvdo-meli sibrZnis gangebiT uwinares xil-uli samyarosa da kacis dabadebisa Sehqmna da moimoqmeda. erTobiT orive es samyaro aris savseba RmrTis Sesaq-misa, xolo adamiani srulyofili sar-kea am savsebisa, romelSic RmerTma orive bunebas sulieri _ umaRlesi da fizikuri _ sulierTan SedarebiT _ umdablesi, misi miuwvdomeli sib-rZniT erT pirSi, zogadad adamianis xatSi Sehkra da gaaerTiana.
orive samyaros, fizikurTan erTad suliersac daubrkoleblad xedavda adami dacemamde, romelTagan RmrTis sibrZne da misi sidiade umetesad da uZlieresad zeciuri sauflos xedvi-sas ixilveboda, masSi aRsrulebuli fizikurTan SedarebiT, uzomoesi sakvirveli saqmeebis mier. amis mxed-veli iyo dacemamde adami, xolo da-cemis Semdeg masac da mTels kacob-riobasac dagvefara da uCino gaxda. mocemuli iyo xilvad Cvenda, magram wagverTva, codvam, urCobam, RmerTis sityvisagan gardasvlam dagvabrmava misi xilvisagan, xolo romelnic Rirsni xdebodnen kvalvad uCinoTa gamocxadebisa, es RmerTis mowyale-biT maTi gansakuTrebuli siwmindisa da saTno cxovrebis gamo eZleodaT.
e.i. moyvaso, rogorc xedav aucile-belia siwminde, raTa adamiani kvalad Rirsi gaxdes uCinos xedvisa, rome-lic dacemis Semdgom wagverTva da aRebul iqmna Cvengan _ RmrTis sib-rZnis sakvirvelebis, xedvis mier aRsaqmeli da gansacdeli es didebu-li nawili.
Tu raime gaugebari ar iyo moyvaso, maSin vgoneb es sakmarisia uCinos Sesaxeb.
_ ara mamao, _ mivuge me.
_ maSin ufro sainteresoze dafar-ulze vTqvaT oriode sityva.
dafaruli aris RmerTis sibrZnis saidumlo codnis wiaRi, sadac adami-anebi RmrTis gansakuTrebuli wyalo-biTa da gangebiT daiSvebian; romel-nic dausruleblad, TandaTanobiT, ZaliTi-Zalad, suliwmindis Semwe-obiTa da moqmedebiT: WvretiT, Semec-nebiTa da zeSTagonebiT gandobilebi xdebian umaRles  saRmrTo saidumlo-ebebSi, da ganibrZnobian saidumlo swavlebiT codnaSi: RmerTis, angelo-zebis da adamianis Sesaxeb, romelnic adamians Zalisamebr RmrTis nebis sisrulis, miuwvdomeli gangebebis da qmnulis sakvirvelebis siRrmeebs ganucxadebs. erTia ixilo da gesmas, xolo meorea _ danaxulis da mos-menilis saidumlos Caswvde.
dafaruli ar ixilveba moyvaso, rogor es uCinoze vTqviT, aramed aq mxolod Wvretaa gonebrivi TvaliT, romelsac suliwmida aZlevs Zalas warmarTebisas. adamians rom dafaru-lis codnis kari ganeRos, siwmindis garda, aucilebelia damsaxureba hqondes RmerTis winaSe; xolo dam-saxurebas _ adamians, RmerTisTvis da saxarebisTvis simdabliTa da siyvar-uliT daTmenili mravali didi Tu mcire  Wiri da gansacdeli, devni-loba, usamarTloba, dacinva, gankiTxva, Sroma, ofli da moRvaweba SesZens.
RmrTis winaSe wminda cxovrebiT, rogorc ukve vTqviT, adamians uCinoTa xedva miecema, xolo siwmindes SeZine-buli damsaxurebiT, dafarulTa gamocxadeba eZleva. ai, amisTvis vTqvi, moyvaso, saubris dasawyisSi, rom uCinos samarTlad da sibrZniT ixsenebs dafarulze win mefe daviT winaswarmetyveli-meTqi, radgan adamiani moRvaweobiT jer siwmindis sazRvrebs miemTxveva, romlis maRal sazomebze asvlisas uCinoTa xedva eZleva, xolo Semdgom, Tu ki kvalad gulmodgine moRvaweobiT iqneba, dam-saxurebac SeeZineba RmerTis mowyale da kacTmoyvare TvalTa winaSe da dafarulTa codnis wyalobasac miiRebs misgan.
rodesac adamiani dafarulTa codnis wiaRSi daiSveba da misi sazo-misaebr miecema gamocxadebani, is mTeli ZaliT eZleva Wvretas, TiTqmis aRar axsovs araferi, bunebrivic ki, imdenad tkbilia es yovelive. mTeli ZaliT Wvrets, gonebiT, gonebis TvaliT danaxuls da wuravs Semecne-bisaTvis. amgvar ,,daZabulobaSi~ is ar ganicdis daRlas da mobezrebas, aramed didi moTminebiTaa Semosili, radgan suli am dros did mSvido-baSia da elis gancxadebas saidum-losas. Wvreta da wvrTa _ sitkboebaa, xolo Semecneba da gacxadeba gamouT-qmeli sixaruli da netareba.
ai, yovelive es moyvaso, Zalzed maRali saTnoebis adamianze aResru-leba, romelsac Rirsi ioane sineli klemaqsSi rwmenas, sasoebas da siyva-ruls uwodebs; aki vTqvi, Zalzed maRali saTnoebisa-meTqi, romelic marTlac, rom ukanaskneli safexuria saTnoebaTa kibis
da mainc TumcDZalzed maRal netarebebs gan-icdis adamiani, masSi dajereba da dacxroma mainc ver xdeba. is kidev ufro metad miiltvis RmrTisaken, masTan kidev ufro Rrma erTobisaken da ganuSorebel myofobisaken.
amis iqiT ukve ganRmrTobaa, romlis mopoveba raime mcdelobiTa da moRvaweobiT SeuZlebelia, azrs mok-lebuli ugunurebaa! es mxolod RmrTis saCuqaria, miuwvdomeli, eniT uTqmeli mowyaleba, romelic RmerTma unda gaiRos misTvis da misi saRmrTo sulis cxovelismyofeli moqmedebiT Rirs hyos am saCuqrisa, romelsac adamianis mxrivac unda Taviseburi moRvaweba.
aq adamiani mTeli arsebiT eZleva simdables, usastikesad imdablebs Tavs da ZirisZiramde Cadis misi uZlurobis gancdaSi. dRe mudam RaRa-debs, stiris da evedreba RmerTs, raTa Rirs hyos misgan ganuSorebel myof-obas.
didia am dros adamianSi siyvaru-lis ali, romelic erT-erTi enaa maradiuli, uzenaesi cecxlisa, romel-sac siyvaruli hqvia. mas am cecxlTan mTlianad SeerTeba swadia da ara marto am cecxlisagan mocemul, mowy-vetil enad yofna.
mTlianad SeerTeba am cecxlTan ganRmrTobaa, _ risTvisac adamians didi ltolvis da vedrebis garda didi Sinagani sisastike marTebs saku-Tar TavTan, uaryofa piradisa da daviwyeba sakuTarisa, rac Tavis didi damdablebis gareSe SeuZlebelia. yoveli adamiani unda giyvardes, xed-avde masSi Zmas da moyvass da gax-sovdes, rom ufalma Cvenma ieso qris-tem yvelasTvis ivno. yvelas siyvar-uli, yvelas msaxurebaa, sibrZniT! romelsac RmerTi aZlevs visac ki mihxedavs da Semosavs amxela siyvar-uliT.
SeerTebamde adamiani iRwvis da mTeli arsebiT iswrafvis RmerTTan ganuSorebel myofobisaken, xolo SeerTebis Semdeg siyvarulSia sadac didi dayudeba, mSvidoba da gansve-nebaa. iq Rwva da swrafvaa, sadac moklebulia mTlianobasa da sisrules; xolo aq didi dayudeba, mSvidoba da gansvenebaa, radgan savsebaa da savsebaSia.
yvelaferi keTilad da saRmrTod uweria ioane sinels, rodesac is adamianis sulis ganvTarebis safexu-rebs didebulad aRwers, magram erTi da saboloo, romelic gvirgvinis yovelivesi, aklia.  mas mxolod siyva-ruli _ ganxmrToba hqvia. aq mxolod siyvarulia, siyvaruli da sxva arafe-ri, adamiani mTlianad da ganuSo-reblad myofobs RmerTTan, rac sruli erTobaa. goneba Cerdeba, azrebi Tavidan sruliad qreba da uCinardeba, aRarc arafers fiqrobs, aramed mxolod RmerTs Wvrets da rasac RvTisagan xedavs da ismens, mas akeTebs da ambobs. ganRmrTobili flobs sibrZnes dasabamidan ukunis-amde, xolo vin iyo ganRmrTobili es Cveni saqme araa (es, ra Tqma unda, CemTvis Tqva), erTi ki viciT _ ioane RmrTismetyveli.
gaognebaSi movedi mosmenilisgan, radgan es yovelive saocreba iyo CemTvis. mkafiod rom ar gagego mamaos piridan es sityvebi, albaT moCvenebas mivawerdi. vfiqrobdi CemTvis: rogor, goneba Cerdeba, azrebi qreba... es xom SeuZlebelia.
am gaugebrobaSi ver gavCerdi da  mamaos mcire SeCerebisTanave vkiTxe:
_ bodiSi mamao, rogor, goneba Cerdeba, azrebi qreba da arafers fiqrobs, nuTu aseTi ram SesaZlebelia?
_ ki. unda damijero moyvaso, kacTagan SeuZlebeli RmerTisTvis SesaZlebelia. es aris gardauvali moqmedeba suliwmidisa adamianze, raTa ganaRmrTos anu saTnoebaTa uzenaesi, yovlis gvirgvini _ siyvaru-li mianiWos.
aba, raRa erToba da RmerTTan yofnaa is, rodesac goneba moqmedia, azrebi didad Tu mcired myofs SenSi da goneba dakavebulia raime safiqre-liT. sruli erToba RmerTTan garda-uvalia gonebis gaCerebis da azrebis araTu nawilobriv, aramed  sruliad gaqrobis gareSe. winaaRmdeg Sem-TxvevaSi aq ganRmrToba ar iqneba, aramed yofna im maRal safexurze, rasac Rirsi ioane sineli rwmenas, sasoebas da da siyvaruls uwodebs.
aq moxda am dRis erT-erTi didi saocreba, romelic maSin mama gabrielTan ver aRviqvi, TiTqosda araferio, ise movismine is sityvebi, romlebic saswaulebriv rames acxa-debda.
me es saubrisas Cveulebrivad mivi-Re da ver gavacnobiere, rac vfiqrob, rom mama gabrielis uzarmazari simdablis gamo moxda, romlis sakvirvelma ubraloebam es naTqvami gonebis TvalTagan damifara da mxolod saubris Semdgom, roca misi senakidan wamovedi, gulisxma vyavi, misi es da sxva aranaklebi siRrmisa da mniSvnelobis naTqvamebi, romlebic saubrisas martivad... mimxvdari azris gareSe ismineboda.
_ mxolod siyvaruli, SeuZlebelia amis gareSe, goneba unda gaCerdes da aranairi azrebi aRar unda iyos masSi, ai rogorc me _ da marjvena xelis mtevani TiTebis SexebiT or-samjer nela miirtya _ miido Tavze. _ amas SeniT ver izam moyvaso, es mxolod suliwmidas ZaluZs rom moimoqmedos adamianSi da amgvari sakvirvelebis Rirsi gagxados. Tumc me ra saqme maqvs amnair madlTan, me xom siberi-sagan var ase, rom azrebi TavSi aRaraa da gonebac gaCerebulia.
am saocari naTqvamis Semdeg, rode-sac mama gabrielma Tqva ,,ai, rogorc me~ - o, raRac Sinaganad Sevivse da arafris kiTxvis survili ar meba-deboda. ucnauria, magram saqme, rome-lic gonebiT dasanaxi da Casawvdomi iyo misi xelis Tavze mirtyma - midebiT, TiTqosda xilulad damanaxa, radgan mamaos am moqmedebis mere CemSi is warmoudgenloba, romelic misi monaTxrobisda gamo mqonda, uceb sarwmuno da dasajerebeli gaxda. gonebasac Zala mieca, raTa mciredi moeazrebina da monaTxrobi, romelic Tavidan saerTod ver gaego, moyoli-lis saxiT mainc dammaxsovreboda.
_ ganRmrTobili am qveyanaze Tavis-Tvis aRar cxovrobs moyvaso, aramed mxolod kacTa sargeblisaTvis aris dedamiwaze. didi simdabliT ifaravs Tavs, rom ar daswvas adamianebi, radgan gancxadebulad rom icxovros, ver gauZleben mis namdvil yofas da Suri SeWamT, Suric rom ara, moyvaso, ver ZaluZT misi datevna, imdenad didia es maTi gonebisaTvis.
xolo is, rom siyvarulia bolo safexuri, mxolod siyvarulia anu ganRmrToeba da es ara aris Tqmuli maRal-saxsenebeli ioane sinelis mier kibis aRweraSi da arc Semdgom Tqmula _ RmerTis gangebaa; RmerTma es CemTvis Semoinaxa, me rom meTqva da mas Cems garda veravin ityoda.
aseve siyvarulia aTi qalwulis igavis saboloo da srulmyofeli ganmarteba, xuT sulel qalwuls siyvaruli akldaT. es aris deda azri am igavisa da mizezi mizezTa, ris gamoc isini moakldnen suliT cxonebas.
aqamde Tqmuli ganmartebebi RmrTis gangebiT Tav-Tavis dros iyo saWiro da mocemuli, xolo es ukanas-kneli ki RmerTma bolo JamisTvis ineba da Semoinaxa mosacemad, rogorc yvelaze didi ram, saWiro da aucile-beli dRes, ise rogorc arasdros da momca me codvils, romelmac mTeli cxovreba RmrTisa da moyvasis siyva-rulisTvis viRvawe da Tavi ar dami-zogavs; da gana ra moxda moyvaso, Tu vhpove madli RmrTis mowyalebis winaSe amis miRebisa, raTa Cems moy-vasT vuTxra, rom RmerTi axla siyvaruls iTxovs Cvengan da rom dRes mTeli SeZlebiT siyvarulisken gvmarTebs moRvaweba; siyvarulisken RmrTisa da moyvasisa.
mama gabrielma es yovelive, ra Tqma unda, rom didi simdabliTa Tqva, romelic masSi saubrisas upirve-lesad ikiTxeboda, magram gasaocari amaSi iyo is, rom am dros misi sityva da metyveleba Zalze Zlieri da xelmwifuri iyo.
Tavdapirvelad, rodesac ioane oqropirma es igavi keTili saqmeebiT anu sulel qalwulebze maTi arqoniT ganmarta, RmrTisagan iyo da amgvarad iyo saWiro im dros, radgan RmerTi maSin adamianebisagan keTil saqmeebs, keTili saqmeebis keTebas iTxovda da maTgan maszed, amgvari moRvaweoba surda.
Semdgom serafim sarovskim xelax-la ganmarta es icavi da mas axleburi gaazreba misca, rodesac suleli qalwulebis warwymedis mizezad maT-zed saRmrTo madlis, suliwmidis nakleboba brZana. amiT RmerTma adamianebs saRmrTo madlis anu suliwmidis moxveWa-mopovebisaken mouwoda da maTi moRvaweba mTlianad aqeTken miaqcia, rom adamianis moRvawebas dedaazrad es dasdeboda, moxveWa da mopoveba saRmrTo madlisa anu suliwmidisa. amas iTxovda adamianisagan da amasve mohkiTxavda mas, am qveynidan gansvlis Semdgom.
xolo axla, rodesac bolo Jamia ,,da ganmravlebiTa uhsjulobisaTa, ganxmes siyvaruli mravalTa~ (mt. 4; 12) admians ise rogorc arasdros sWirdeba siyvaruli da unda iyos sibrZniT, rom ar moakldes da moswydes mas; radgan dRes boroti suli mTeli ZaliT imas cdilobs, rom adamianTa gulebidan siyvaruli amoglijos, misgan mciredni mok-lebiT nel-nela gaacilos da Sem-dgom saerTod ganaSoros mas.
RmerTi axla siyvaruls iTxovs Cvengan da amitom mTeli Cveni moRva-weba siyvarulisken, misi mopovebisaken da damkvidrebisaken unda wavmarToT, rac mxolod qvelis saqmeTa gziTaa SesaZlebeli; radgan siyvaruli Tvi-nier saqmeTa gareSe mkvdaria da mxolod haerSi naTqvami fuWi sityvaa, romelic adamians sasjelad daedeba uflis, ieso qristes winaSe saSinel samsjavroze, rameTu iZaxda siyvaruli, siyvaruli da im saqmeTagan Sors idga moyvarul adamians rom unda hqondes RmerTisa da moyvasis winaSe; an Tu hqonda naklulevani, vidre mis SeZlebaSi iyo, rom aResrulebina da ar hqmna.
siyvaruli cxovelia moyvaso, rome-lic keTili saqmis gareSe kvdeba; keTili saqmeebi keTili qmedebaa; ke-Tili qmedeba ki sicocxlea siyvaru-lisa. esaa WeSmariti siyvaruli da erTaderTi Zala, romliTac adamiani SeZlebs gauZlos boloJamiseul sac-durebs, simZimesa da SiSs, romelsac antiqriste _ misi droebiTi meufeba moitans am qveyanaze.
aq daasrula mamaom saubari, rom-lis aRweras weris gagrZelebis gamo aRar Sevudgebi. cota xans Cumad vis-xediT. garedan mamaos sanaxavad mos-ulma locva warmosTqva ,,locviTa wmidaTa mamaTa CvenTaTa~... kidev kai xans mogviwia, ufro zustad, momiwia mamaosTan ganmartoebiT yofna, radgan am dros masTan ukve mnaxvelebi modi-odnen.
mama gabrielma gareT myof mnax-vels, romelic locviT senakSi Semosvlas iTxovda, ,,amin~ - is TqmiT ufleba darTo Semosvlisa, xolo me RimiliT gadmomxeda da miTxra: ,,aba moyvaso, qristes saxeliT mSvidobiT warvedi~. _ miveaxle, locva-kurTxeva aviRe da saxlisken wamovedi.
Zalzed Znelia imis aRwera, Tu rogori bednieri viyavi am yvelaf-risagan. mixaroda, rom mama gabrielma Rirsi gamxada amgvari didebuli saubrisa; rasac Tan erTvoda is sulieri Sinagani da saocrad netari mdgomareoba, rac am saubrisgan, kerZod mama gabrielis madlmosili sityvebidan miviRe; radgan yoveli misi sityva, iqneboda es metyvelebis rigismieri, Tu raRac Rrma, mniSvne-lovanis maniSnebeli da gamomxatveli, ucnauri sitkboebiT da STabeWdile-biT ismineboda; romelmac CemSi didi sixaruli, didi simSvide da rac yvelaze didebuli ram iyo, uzar-mazari siyvarulis grZnoba da gancda Semoitana; romelic CemSi raRacna-irad brunavda da yvelafers irgvli-vac da CemSic silamazes, naTel fers da metyvel dumils fenda. gonebasac raRac Tavisufali, saRi azrovnebis Zala mieca da vfiqrobdi mama gabri-elis monaTxrobze. nel-nela mexsne-boda da vafiqsirebdi mamaos monaT-xrobSi im siRrmiseul sityvaTa mniSvnelobas, romelic masTan yofni-sas ver gulis-xma-vhyavi; rac kidev erTxel vityvi, rom Cemi azriT misi sakvirvelis simdablisa da ubralo-ebis gamo moxda. gakvirveba gakvir-vebas emateboda, roca ganRmrTobaze mis sityvebs vixsenebdi da Turme mama gabrieli amgvari mama yofila; rac mis Sefarulad naTqvam sityvebSi da moqmedebaSi ifareboda. kerZod roca miTxra: ,,ai, rogorc me~-o da xelis mtevani TiTebis SexebiT or samjer nela miirtya, nela miido Tavze.
amis qmna mamaos Cems gamo mouwia, odes am sakiTxisadmi CemSi sruli gaogneba da warmoudgenloba ixila; riTac man CemSi ucnauri gardaqmna moaxdina. gonebam amis Semdeg alRo auRo am sakiTxs da Tumc, marTalia, mTeli sisavsiT ver Caswvda, raRac doneze Sesaxebi da misaxvedri gaxda mainc.
yvelaze didi da Seumcdari rwmu-neba imisa, rom mama gabrieli amgvari _ ganRmrTobili mama iyo, garda Cemi misdami da misi sityvebisadmi didi rwmenisa da dajerebisa, swored es Cems SinaganSi momxdari gardaqmna iyo; radgan swored misi am moqmede-bis da sityvebis Semdeg (ufro ki mainc moqmedebis, Tumc, ra Tqma unda, sityvebsac udidesi datvirTva da Sedegi hqondaT), rodesac man xelis mtevani xelis SexebiT or-samjer nela miirtya-miido Tavze da Tqva ,,ai rogorc me~ - o, raRacnairad Sevivse da Tu ganRmrToebis saidum-loebaTa siRrme da mdgomareobani CemTvis gaugebari da warmoudgeneli iyo, uceb ucnaurad dasajerebeli da mcired misaxvedri gaxda; xolo amgvari ram mxolod ganmRrTobil mamas SeeZlo eqna, rogorc sityvebis-naTevamis Sesabamisi sazomis mflobels.
Semdgom am gakvirvebas emateboda is sityvebi, roca mamaom sulieri ganviTarebis safexurebis anu saTno-ebaTa kibes, romelic eklesias RmerT-Semosili mamis Rirsi ioane sineli-sagan aqvs mocemuli kidev erTi, ara Tu safexuri, aramed rogorc TviT Tavad netari mama ambobda ,,yovlis gvirgvini~, mxolod siyvaruli anu ganRmrToeba, rogorc daklebuli daumata da Tqva, rom RmerTma es CemTvis Semoinaxa, rom me meTqva da amas Cems garda veravin ityodao. Tqva ise, TiTqos morideba da wuxili hqonda gulSi, rom mis gamo ar iyo Tqmuli aqamdis es.
amas kidev Tan erTvoda aTi qalwu-lis igavis ganmarteba (vfiqrob yve-laze mTavari ram am saubarSi), sadac xuTi suleli qalwulis warwymedis mizezad mamaom maTzed siyvarulis nakleboba brZana. da rom es, xuT sulel qalwulze siyvarulis nakle-boba aris RmrTisagan mocemuli sabo-loo ganmarteba am igavisa, romelic CvenTvis, adamianebisaTvis mowodebaa da brZaneba RmrTisa, raTa mTeli ZaliT siyvarulisaken, misi mopoveba-damkvidrebisaken viRvawoT; rogorc yvelaze saWiro da aucilebelze dRes CvenTvis, ise, rogorc arasdros qriste macxovris mosvlis Semdgom kacobriobis istoriaSi.
erTbaSad yovelive amis momaaz-rebeli sixaryulisagan da gakvir-vebisagan ,,gabruebuliviT~ viyavi. TiTqosda Cems TavSi veRar veteodi da mindoda es yovelive vinmesTvis _ morwmune axlobelisTvis momeyola. amis gamo TbilisSi Casvlisas saxlSi aRar wavedi, aramed erT Cems Zalian axlobel morwmune ojaxSi Seviare, romlebic mama gabriels kargad ic-nobdnen da yovelive dawvrilebiT movuyevi, maTac Zalzed gaixares da gaocdnen monayolisgan. Semdgom ram-denime saaTi maTTan davyavi da am Temis da mamaos irgvliv vsaubrob-diT.
bneloda, roca saxlSi mivedi, cota xanSi Cemi  ufrosi Zmac movida samu-Saodan, romelic Cemze uwin icnobda mama gabriels da masac yovelive dawvrilebiT movuyevi, amis Semdgom, cota xani wynarad, CemTvis Camovjeqi da gamiCnda survili, rom saxareba wamekiTxa: ufro swored ki menaxa da Tvali gadamevlo im saxarebaze, rom-elic  stokholmSi, bibliis Targmnis institutSia gamocemuli.
es saxareba karga xnis win nayidi, saxlSi mqonda, magram imis gamo, rom msmenoda masSi mravali Sedomaa daS-vebuli da Tan Targmanic jerovnad Sesrulebuli ar ariso, gadaSlili da wakiTxuli ar mqonda. am yoveli-ves miuxedavad, mainc viyide, radgan rogorc wigni misi gamoSvebis xaris-xi Zalzed momwonda da mizidavda, Tan sxva Tu araferi _ saxareba iyo.
avdeqi. saxareba, romelic ujraSi mqonda Senaxuli, gamoviRe, jer garedan SevaTvaliere, Semdeg ki wasakiTxad gadavSale, interesiT, Tu rogori Targmani da sakiTxavi iyo. pirvelive gadaSlaze ioane mociqu-lis saxarebis dasawyisi, pirveli Tavi Semxvda. ,,Tavdapirvelad iyo sityva da sityva iyo RmerTTan, da sityva iyo RmerTi~. amis Semdgom kidev ramdenime muxli CavikiTxe da mivxvdi, rom Sexeduleba, romelic enobrivad gaumarTav Targmanze mqonda, swori ar iyo. Tumca, ra Tqma unda, Zvel qar-Tul saxarebiseul enas da Targmans ver Seedreboda.
Semdgom amisa, gamiCnda survili, rom mociqulTa epistoleebzec gadamevlo Tvali. da axla iq menaxa, Tu enobrivad rogori sakiTxavi iyo. bolosaken daviwye Sla, mociqulTa epistoleebs ratomRac gverdi avuare da roca ioane maxarebelis gamocx-adebas mivadeqi, gavCerdi. daviwye kiTxva pirveli Tavis pirvelive muxlTan ,,gamocxadeba ieso qristesi, romelic misca mas RmerTma, raTa eCvenebina Tavis morCilTaTvis rac unda moxdes male~, es wavikiTxe, mcired qvemoTac Cavedi da uceb gamaxsenda mama gabrielis sityvebi _ ,,ganRmrTobili flobs sibrZnes dasabamidan ukunisamde, xolo vin iyo ganRmrTobili es Cveni saqme araa, erTi ki viciT, ioane RmrTismetyveli~. amgvarma uecarma mtkicebam mamaos sityvaTa WeSmaritebisa, romelic patara saswauliviT iyo da aris Cem-Tvis, kidev ufro gamaxara da ganmam-tkica imis rwmenaSi, rom mama gabri-elis monaTxrobi sruli WeSmariteba iyo. Tumc es Tavidanve mwamda, magram es CemTvis saswaulebrivi faqti, romelmac im dResve, saubris Semdeg ramodenime saaTSi amgvari mtkiceba momca mamaos sityvaTa WeSmaritebisa da isic wmnida saxarebidan, miviRe rogorc RmerTis moqmedeba, romelmac yovelive monaTxrobs Seumcdarobis da WeSmaritebis beWedi daasva.
rTulia gadmosce is mdgomare-obani Cemi sulisa, romelsac am monaTxrobis daweramde ganvicdidi. RmerTis winaSe vityvi da daficebas mxolod imis gamo moveridebi, rom wmida mamaTa erTi gamonaTqvami maxsendeba: ,,adamiani imdenad uZluria, rom misi Tavisac bolomde ar uwyis da araTu angelosisa da RmerTisa~, Torem daficebasac ar moveridebi, rom am yovelives dawera Cemi uRirsebis gamo srcxvils mgvrida. ar vici sulis uqvemoes siRrmeSi Tu iyo survili am yovelives dawerisa ampartavnebis, anda mzvaobrobis gamo, radgan sulis im siRrmemde, sadam-disac Cemi cnobiereba aRwevs, amgvari azri ar gamvlebia. piriqiT, sircxvili da ukiduresi morideba iyo CemSi am monaTxrobis daweris mimarT.
madloba RmerTs, imisTvis, rom mama gabrielis sidiadisa da misi am monaT-xrobebis mniSvnelobis garkveuli saxiT _ mcired Semcnobeli gavxdi: da rom ganRmrTobili mama iyo igi; da Tu ra aris ganRmrToba, ra mdgoma-reobaa es da kidev ufero zustad, rogori gziT, ris wiaR-wiaRSi miiR-weva igi da rom siyvaeuli, mxolod siyvaruli aris ganRmrToba, romelic ,,gvirgvinia yovelivesi~ ukeTu Rmer-Tma ineba da misi miuwvdomeli sibrZ-nis gangebiT uboZa igi saTnoebaTa mwvervalze _ rwmena, sasoeba, siyvarulze asulT; da rom RmerTma amis Tqma misTvis Semoinaxa _ gasaocari gangebuleba!
amaT kidev Tan erTvis aTi qalwu-lis igavis ganmarteba, sadac suTi suleli qalwuli siyvarulis nakle-bobis gamo daisajen, da rom es saboloo ganmartebaa mocemuli RmerTisgan; romlis anu am igavis TiToeuli ganmarteba epoqalur saxes atarebs Turme kacobriobis istoriaSi, rac sakvirveli siRrmiT xedvaa RmerTis gangebisa adamianis yofierebaSi; romelic am igavis ganmartebiT da ganmartebebSi isaxeba, cxaddeba da moicema. rac ganxorci-elebuli sityvis, uflis ieso qristes qadagebaTa _ sityvaTa mflobelobas da sicxoveles amtkicebs da cxad-hyofs yovelgvar droze da yovel-gvar droSi.
da rom ukanaskneli Jamis epoqaSi mcxovrebT es _ siyvarulisaken swrafva da misi moxveWa-damkvidreba gvaqvs RmerTisgan mocemuli nebad da karnaxad, radgan masSia da is aris is Zliereba, romelic am bolo Jamis epoqis gamZvinvarebuli antiqris-tianuli sulisagan, wuTisoflis momZlavrebuli sacdurebisagan, riTac katastrofulad ivseba yvela-feri da yovelive am qveynierebaze da TviT antiqristes saSineli meuf-ebis damonebisagan gvixsnis.
ai, yovelive es mafiqrebinebda, rom aucilebelia gadmocemuliyo da daweriliyo mosmenilis Sesaxeb. magram imis gafiqreba, rom es me unda damewera da me unda vyofiliyavi am saqmis aRmsrulebeli, TiTqmis survilis ganqarvebamde mivyavdi; magram Sevcbi da SevSindi RmerTis winaSe, rodesac sabolood am azrze dadgoma da masSi gamyareba gadavwy-vite. sindisi sul meubneboda: ,,rogor, es yvelaferi ukvalod unda dav-kargo? ra, mxolod Senia?! ar geSinia qristes winaSe amaze pasuxi rom ago~?! Tan sircxvilis grZnobac gamaCnda mama gabrielis  _ am sakvirveli mamis winaSe, romlis Zvirfas saubarsac ukvalod vkargavdi...
Cems Tavze, es zemoT monayoli ar iyo sulis msubuqi moZraobebi da nazi gancdebi, aramed rTuli da Zneli, xangrZlivi procesi, romelic oTxi wlis manZilze Sinagan brZolasa da gadawyvetaSi mimdinareobda da mosa-bezrebeli rom ar yofiliyo mkiT-xvelisTvis, rogorc SemeZlo mokled davwere.
bolos ki, rodesac Cemi Semecneba dawerisaken sruliad miiqca, gadavwy-vite mama gabrielis am monaTxrobis furcelze gadmotana. saTqmeli vTqvi. Tu gasagebad ver SevZeli gadmocema Semindos mama gabrielma da mkiTxvelma, xolo Tu normalurad _ madloba ufals.

daviT-gareja. 1999 w.
,mRvdel-monazoni kirioni.

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